A key part of recovery is understanding what’s happened to you and recognising that it’s a familiar story for many who speak up about wrong doing.
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Park, H. & Lewis, DB., (2018) The negative effects of external whistleblowing: a study of some key factors
Smith, CP & Freyd, J. (2014) Institutional Betrayal. American Psychologist, Vol 69, N6. Pp575- 587
Alford, C. (2015) The trauma of whistleblowers: stuck in static time
Hewe, R., Liefooghe, A., Visockaite, G, & Roongremgsuke, S., (2018) Bullying at work: cognitive appraisal of negative acts, coping, well-being and performance
Smith, R. 2014. Whistleblowers and Suffering. Chapter 10 in AJ. Brown, D. Lewis, R. Moberly & W. Vanderkerckhove (2014) International Handbook on Whistleblowing Research
van der Velden, PG., Houwerzijl, MS., & van der Meulen, E. (2019) Mental Health Problems Among Whistleblowers: A Comparative Study (2019)
Hopefully some of the above reading can help you understand your experience. Often understanding can make it easier to move on. But if you still feel stuck, feel free to get in touch here for a complementary consultation